And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Romans 5:5

Why would God even want to love someone like me? I ask myself this question so often that I have actually at times believed that He couldn’t possibly.   How could He love someone who is constantly letting Him down with the things they do? My heart is not always in the right place and I don’t always want to do what He is asking me to do. I throw my own personal tantrum claiming I’m not good enough to love. I am just simply not good enough! 

So what do I do? I hide.  I truly think that if I just don’t open the bible or my journal that God can’t see me and He can’t make me do what He’s asking.  REALLY?! I hide from the ALL knowing God of the universe?!  Sometimes, I wonder just how amusing He finds it that I think I’m in the perfect hiding spot.  Kind of like when I watch the kids play hide and go seek. There is always that one who hides in the most obvious spot there is, thinking that they can’t be seen.  Yep, that’s me. Right there, out in the open for God to plainly see.

And what does He do? He waits. He is perfectly content on waiting out my tantrum for me to come out from where I am hiding and run to Him.  The best part about that is, is that He truly can’t think of being anywhere else than right where I am. He wants me in all of my brokenness,  He wants to take away my fears and love on me in ways that I have never been loved before. Wow! The God of the Universe loves me, so much so that He waits.